[fly with me, my butterfly] :)

Sunday, January 06, 2008

Its overwhelming doing all the assignments..
I have a sharp pain between my eyes
that makes me keep frowning..

Im only done with these few and
the rest are undone or un-finish yet..
I need all of them by Monday..

~~IEP Research~~
IEP Graph
~~AYC online discussion~~
~~AYC Individual~~
AYC Group
AMPYC exercise
ASLEC questionaires

Did i missed out any?

As i was doing the assignments,
my music playlist kept playing
these three songs

Tears in heaven - Eric Clapton
Love me- Colinn Raye
Hui you na me yi tien - JJ Lin

These all songs that are link
to parting and death
yeah so spooky..

Yesterday, just minutes ago
was my grandad's death anniversary..
Maybe he was singing these songs to me..

9 years had passed..
To me, it was just like yesterday,
the incident happened...

I rmb 9 years ago,
although I was only in primary school
i remembered every detailed..

My grandma called to say
something happened to grandad,
and my daddy and my uncle rushed down
to their house..
I heard from mummy
but I dare not cry..
I just kept lookin at that
one and only little star in the sky,
and kept praying
that grandad was alright and
let grandad stay with us..
I just kept thinking of him
till I fell asleep..

I woke up the next day and asked my mummy
how was grandad and then I received
the bad news..
The worst news of my life..
I was just the age of my youngest brother now,
at 10 or 11 years old
to receive the word death..

I dont know if its for fear or for misses or wad
I just cried every night for a very long period,
worst after my grandma left, not even half a yr
after grandad left..

Although, they left me so long..
Its still so hard
not to cry when I think of them..
The more I cried, the more I missed them all..

I didnt know it was almost a decade
I just realised that when we visited
my grandparents niche earlier..

So now you know why I love stars so much..
Its like a special communicating tool
between my grandparents and me..

Im alright after crying it out now
couldnt do so in the columbarium..
Now you know,
Im a emotional person...

p/s 1: Thanks for making me watch more
sad MTVs.. yr reverse psychology..
p/s 2 : Thanks for sending me that song..
It really helps.. :)

♥ a butterfly landed @ 1:55:00 AM

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